Monday, October 6, 2008

I Think I May Be Crazy

Have you ever had those days...you just dont want to be anywhere...not even in your own head. So you lay in bed or go for a walk, put a book in your hand so you can do anything but be where you are. Today i woke up...No work today...up at 8am...took my car in to get a brake inspection, spent time with one of my friends, then came home. my head pounding with a million different thoughts of my past, what i need to do with my life right now and what i'm going to do later in my life, i needed to get away from my head...so this is what i do...
I Lay in bed, put my headphones in my ears, closed my eyes and played my music so i can't hear anything else, not my phone, not my precious baby lucifer, no one knocking on my door and most importantly i couldn't hear my own thoughts. I layed in bed for hours listening to the words in each song closely, then finally i opened my eyes, took out my headphones and i was okay, though still had a bit of a headache, my mind was clear and i coud focus on one thing at a time. i wish i had that kind of time everyday to just lay in bed for hours and clear my head.

anyways...i must be crazy!! so many thoughts...not enough of me. lol